Yesterday I was left home alone with my dependent. Today it's the same thing. Why do I feel more nervous about bit now? I don't know. I'm doing my breathing techniques.
Yesterday I talked to my mom on the phone. I'll contact someone again today. Part of the reaching out for help theme from group therapy yesterday.
I called my family again today. My family didn't answer in time or fast enough. It wasn't their fault. Since I was alone with my dependent I didn't feel like going into a tailspin. I had physical symptoms that went with my anxiety/panic attack. Tightness of chest and stomach areas, Lightheadedness, trouble focusing. I felt myself losing a battle. I had to take a .5 Xanax. I didn't want to scar and scare my dependent by having to call 9-1-1.
I finally reach my mom. We talk over the phone by FaceTime. She sees me working on a new project. I'm cutting the legs of of two pairs of jeans. I'm very happy to talk to her about this project. I'll be making jean shorts, and a pouch, as well.
The rest of my family comes home after a while. The dog is greeted in the living room while I am still waiting in the bedroom. Teasing ensues now. My family is home.
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