Clinic highs and lows

The clinic changed my Rx back to extended release. The p. a. hadn't told me it would be rapid release and to take it twice a day at separate times. No. I end up having severe heart palpitations that require Xanax. Tomorrow I will be back on extended release. 

The clinic was SOO HOT IT WAS A SAUNA. I changed myself out into a gown. Staff kept wondering why I was in a gown: pap? Breast exam? What? Just see me before I pass out from heat exhaustion or BP explosion! Geeze ppl!  

My sibling and family coming to pick up 5 year service pin from scouts. Will show greater Los Angeles pin I got for my dependent in case it helps in the uniform test. 

There's an OLD HAUNTING GROUND REVISITED

There's a reason  THE OLD HAUNTIG GROUND and THE POISONED LAUNDRY are found a year apart on my crappy novel blog. I originally wrote a very HEAVY version last year. It included beating the crap out of the bitch and her friends AFTER they got in the heroes face. I deemed it too negative and "what ifs "kept popping up in my head. So while it was a nice original write up a healthier version had to be done. One that didn't make ppl wonder if I was crazy.  The result was THE OLD HAUNTED GROUND. Now the follow up is THE POISONED LAUNDRY. THERE STILL IS ANOTHER PART THAT NEEDS TO BE MADE. STAND UP OR RUNAWAY. 

Wrong BP Rx

Today I decided to take a new look at my new dose of verapamil rx'd by the new P. A.  It's missing extended release. That's why I've been feeling like before this past week. I just picked it up recently, then my arm/shoulder is injured and I'm on pain killer and anti inflammatory. So because I'm so woozy I don't notice it until this week. This week I'm no longer on the anti inflammatory or pain killer. The P. A. told me to stop taking it and gave me a Rx for Tylenol extra strength for arthritis. It was not covered, so OTC it is. My shoulder is feeling better, occasionally, it hurts and I have to do home PT in the oddest places. I did it during a parent mtg, during another public event. Both embarrassing. 

Remember semaphores

Something humorous from the internet

Double dose

Once again I had to take another .5 Xanax. Will see my therapist and MD this week. Don't know if it's anxiety or BP. Felt like anxiety. But definitely need to check my BP. This past week I've had flushing, unexpect. My arm feels a bit better but it still hurts to type on a keyboard; like carpel tunnel. The bicep muscle feels less stressed but still tight. Seems like it finally kicked in. 

Just wanted to share this.

Just wanted to share this. This is exactly what anxiety is like. Sometimes it feels like a vice on your torso that keeps tightening. 

Not my property 

Deep massage

My Relation gave me a deep tissue massage layperson style. I had to take two tylenols(which was due anyway), and cut my lunch in half due to pain. I continue with heat pad and range of motion exercises. 

One exercise is adapted from the nautilus machines.  I start with my arms up in front of me. Similar to these two icons  (||). Then I open my arms until they are shoulder wide(|   |). Then return to start position(||). 

Not driving

I purposely DID NOT DRIVE while I had to take the anti-inflammatory and pain killer. There was a lot of napping. So Relation had driving duty again. Saw medical staff this week cuz I was still in pain. They took me off pain killer and put me on Tylenol extra strength for arthritis! ;-).

Severe muscle strain in shoulder

It's been very hard to use my cell or even type.  It hurts after a while. Mo fo hurts. 

Drove to Michael's

Today I drove to Michaels thinking it was Saturday. I was aiming for a specific class. Well it turns out I was a day early. Oops. So I registered for the class tomorrow and again in March. 

I got a bit nervous coming home. I called my relation to help keep me calm on the drive home. It worked.  Yay! 

Off to the doctors today

This past weekend I extremely sprained my muscle or nerve in my right shoulder. It has extended to the back of my neck, and my back as well. I am in extreme pain! I will be seeing the doctor today after dropping off our dependent. 

It hurts if I lift my arm up. It hurts if I lift it to the right. It hurts if I lift it forward. Hurts if I left it backwards. It plain hurts!!!!

My sibling warned me to make sure it wasn't gallbladder!  Say what?   

I'm stinking up the waiting room with ICY HOT. SORRY FOLKS. My pain is 9/10. 

Ok no arm sling because drs believe it makes it worse. I have a muscle issue. I've been given a pain reliever and an anti-inflammatory. Relations is helping me keep track of the schedule and which one is which. My mind is scattered from the pain. I was supposed to see my case manager but J had important issues with another patient that was on the edge. 

Sometimes I sound and hear like this: tnsmskeutbd dnsnwn enfjfk? 

I was so opted during my four hours at the clinic I played Gillian's island in paper. Had to my phone died. I created my own island. Check my tumblr account   National defense? Skunk bombs using real skunks. 

Scouting 101

Watching SCOUTING 101 to be able to volunteer in scouting. 

This week

Well fatigue set in on me this week. Not from medication just hormones. I've driven my dependent to school a few times this past week--ALONE. RELATION was still fast asleep. I did bit drive D and I to services Sunday. R took us. I need to work on that. I did drive us to a discount store nearby. 

 

This Friday will mark a week off of Lexapro completely. I had been on the Rx for 11 years. The Rx just wasn't working for me anymore. D realized it and argued with me about this for a year before I was ready to move in from it. I've been on Xanax everyday now. Only .5 dose. I see my Dr. in a few weeks for a follow up. My sibling asked how I'm doing. Worried about the addiction factor like myself. When the Dr said "this is what you're going to do." I finally agreed and did it. I'm not on any replacement for Lexapro yet. Dr will see how I'm doing first.