I found old clothes for a quilt!

I found older and smaller size shirts for my relative that I can cut up and turn in to quilt strips. Yay! They're nice and thick because they're from Land's End. 

Home alone again

Yesterday I was left home alone with my dependent. Today it's the same thing. Why do I feel more nervous about bit now? I don't know. I'm doing my breathing techniques.

Yesterday I talked to my mom on the phone. I'll contact someone again today. Part of the reaching out for help theme from group therapy yesterday.

I called my family again today. My family didn't answer in time or fast enough. It wasn't their fault. Since I was alone with my dependent I didn't feel like going into a tailspin. I had physical symptoms that went with my anxiety/panic attack. Tightness of chest and stomach areas, Lightheadedness, trouble focusing. I felt myself losing a battle. I had to take a .5 Xanax. I didn't want to scar and scare my dependent by having to call 9-1-1.

I finally reach my mom. We talk over the phone by FaceTime. She sees me working on a new project. I'm cutting the legs of of two pairs of jeans. I'm very happy to talk to her about this project. I'll be making jean shorts, and a pouch, as well.

The rest of my family comes home after a while. The dog is greeted in the living room while I am still waiting in the bedroom. Teasing ensues now. My family is home.

4.29.13

Tough day today. Some ppl need to realize they aren't innocent. They are responsible as well.

Half way to being able to take another Xanax. Let me clarify this statement. I'm trying to get off Xanax. So I started at three days apart, then four days apart, then five days apart. Now I'm at six days apart. I had gotten as far as 16 days apart but then the tonsillectomy hit. Out went that schedule with every flare up of my nerves. So, here I am trying again. This week ill be attending my first group session dealing with stress and depression.

I worked on my loom knitting today. The scarf is finally taking shape,length-wise.
I worked on my scarf outside because certain ppl were working my last nerve. I didn't really speak to this person until hours later. I waited for that person to come to me. Eventually that person did come to me. Still p. o.

New Hobby 4.14.13

Yesterday I learned a new hobby; finger knitting. My m-i-l learned it by watching tutorials on YouTube. I tried my best yesterday to learn on my own. I finally got it right when she showed me yesterday. She tried to teach her mother, however, she kept wanting to flip the yarn on the pointer finger first instead of the pinky finger. So far I've made two scarves or belt for a child. They sure Wong fit me.