Bullying at school!

It's gotta stop. The bullying. The 2nd volunteer at the library told me wgat happened last Thursday. I asked her to write everything down. My dependent was bullied then written up. Why? D had had enough and tossed books. 

I can't write anire without my nerves gettifrayed  again. 

Wow what a weekend

Last night I woke up in a day mare. Relation came and soothed me and recommended I take the Xanax. I didn't at that time. This morning when I realized my body hadn't fully recuperated I took the .5 Xanax. Last night I finished those donuts. Could it have brought in my anxiety? It was certainly a factor. But my dependent's situation is the stressor. 

I'm still worried about Monday. I filled out the consent form for the guidance intern to see my dependent. But we parents think it's time to change the environment anyway. Still want to do all for D, but we want a fresh start. That class has a negative vibe for D. The children are in D's face. They tattletale on D. Five raced up to me to tell me something D did that was silly. D didn't kill anyone. D didn't punch anyone in the face. D played with the wood-chips. D didn't bother anyone. WHO CARES!  D didn't hurt anyone. I don't want to hear it. 

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D and I went to church D had Sunday school, then we went to mass. R picked us up as we went to the mall. Shower's done. Now it's time for D to write an apology to the teacher. In the letter what behaviors need to be followed through on. I'm stressed out. It's time to switch classes. 

D wrote the letter to the teacher with help. I put it in an envelope for privacy sake. We have talked to D all weekend about proper behavior. We want D to avoid saying things that will have child services coming to our house and remove D. D says things and doesn't realize how horrible they sound. 

Angels and Ministers of Grace pray for us. Blessed Virgin Mary pray for us. St. Kateri pray for us. 

Jesus in your name we pray. Heal us all. Amen. 

Chocolate fix?

I know the cart screams menstruating woman on chocolate fix but only one chocolate item is mine! I got the donuts. Dependent got the cereal and relation got the cupcakes. 

Good day today...bad day

Had a good day today. My one-on-one dealt with helping my dependent learn coping skills for life. G. and I used the white board to track D's train of thought. I felt better after that. G said it would be ok if it was ok with me to be included in the SST for D. I am thankful for that. 

Coping skills now or pain later. Coping. Skills. Now.

So far no Xanax today. It's been 8 days since my last dosage. 

D's teacher stated D had a bad today. Lets see... How did it start? 

• baby stepped to class via another route

• wrote I LOVE on facial tissue

• lost her pencil box privilege cuz she played with..., and tossed it. 

• said, "why don't you kill me" to the teacher 

• she threw a paper ball at someone---D then spoke up sayiny, "Isr. threw it at me"

While the teacher was trying to talk to me quietly in the classroom other students tried to come in. Teacher firmly told them to leave the room. This was not a conversation for them. 

MY DEPENDENT IS HEADING FOR S. E. D.! That's a place D would never survive! 

I've worked with S. E. D. It's not nice. It's not pretty. It's dangerous. D gas negative thought. True. Dangerous? Not yet. Lets keep it that way. 

Keeping busy

I've been volunteering all week at the school library. I couldn't go in today because I'm sick. I have frequent, sometimes bloody, diarrhea. My abdomen feels full. Every time it feels full I have to go to the bathroom. When I do that I have to do #2. Depending on the size it's either bloody or not. Last night at target it was bloody. There was a pool of blood in the toilet. When I got home there was some blood in my underwear. I'm trying to figure out what's going in in my body. Bladder infection? Kidney or intestinal problems? Hemorrhoid? Early sporadic cycle? If it were my cycle it would be a week early it's not due until next Thursday. 

I checked the calendar again. My period was due in two days. Why the mix up? Cuz in my digital calendar I put p1 and then repeated it for 7 days. When I counted back the weeks I ran into 9/26 before 9/21. Therefore, my cycle is on time. It started two days earlier than last month. Consider that last month it started two days later!  Harrumph. I've been given two Rx and a promise from relation never to try that again. 

Teacher today was a substitute. The sub did not stay long at all! Dependent did not copy down homework assignment. Last nights homework had not been turned in. D wants to know if I'm angry. Relation is playing the blame game. Gonna start calling R Obama. 

Btw, Obama always passes the buck. "It's not my fault it's yours." Obama, "it's not my fault, it's theirs."  President Obama is very good that way too. THE BUCK STOPS HERE.--President Harry S. Truman, 33rd  President of the United States of America, Democrat. 

TAKE RESPONSIBILITY PEOPLE! Private, Public, husband and wives. TAKE. RESPONSIBILITY. 

Phone ring at lunch sets off my nerves

It's lunch time. The landline keeps ringing. It's not for be but it sets my nerves off. Why? I keep thinking its the school calling us to pick up our dependent. Today I volunteered in the library. I did not pass by the class to see the teacher at recess. I did not look for my dependent in the yard. I did, however, leave a note for the guidance counselor and the principal. The one for the principal ends with SINCERELY, (my name), ADVOCATE FOR (my dependent). I requested and appraised the principal of what is going on. 

This situation almost caused me to take .5 Xanax but I was eventually able to overcome it. 

My relation and I take our dependent to the library now to do homework. It helps D focus. I appreciate being out of the house. The 1.0 generation doesn't get their knickers in a bunch cuz 3.0 has homework. 

Gggrrrrr and fuck you too

Gggrrrr

My dependent got in trouble at school. Teacher threatened with half day! Very unhappy! 

• Raised shirt and flashed child of opposite gender in class- teacher stated

• Played with glasses on bridge of nose for five minutes-- teacher stated

• Played with own hair on own face and desk partner's. desk partner was moved. - teacher stated

• Teacher appreciates my not popping in to class. It's a distraction. - teacher stated. 

• Teacher miscued final conversation with me. Teacher turned back to me and went to have parent teacher conference with another parent. Did not say good-bye. - parent observed. 

The day started with a call from a cousin to tell me cousin's parent had a heart attack! And so starts the day wrong because relation can't censor own lips in front of our dependent!!!! "Oh our dependent is fine. Now about your extended relatives heart attack and hospitalization...."  

OMG shut the fuck up! ¡Come mierda! ¡Sinvergüenza cabrón! 

Going Home To Nicodemus

I am really enjoying the book, Going Home to Nicodemus, by Daniel Chu. The promoters really DID STRETCH THE TRUTH BOTH TIMES they promoted the town. The minister's wife cried when she saw the town. The railroad companies didn't want to invest in Nicodemus. They would get as far as a certain town and then stop. Then they'd decide to go a different route. Bogue township started as a camp for railroad laborers and developed into a rival town! ...

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I continue this topic on my Laura Ingalls Wilder blog. 

Volunteerism

I volunteered again today. The computer broke down. We had to check in and check out books the old fashioned way! By hand. Both administrators were in the library with our school librarian. The principal states the library could not be closed down. It had to be opened and allow children to take books home today for the weekend. The school had an obligation to meet. The computer needed an upgrade in software and hardware. Mr. IT came ad fixed the problem. While the librarian worked out the problems with the computer, I aided as a volunteer, in checking in and checking out books. When first grade sent their WHOLE BOX OF BOOKS with no library card! Sheesh... They had to be returned to the teacher to hold on. By the end if my time there today Mr. IT and the librarian had the computer worked out. YES!!!

What did I do? 

• I helped organize and tidy up the shelves. 

• I checked in books manually 

• I checked out books manually 

• I organized go back books by grade level or the Dewey decimal system. 

• I kept the students focused, and in order while they waited their turn. 

• I engaged the students in small talk while doing the clerical work. 

Volunteer at school

Today I walked my dependent to school. I talked to the parent volunteer who saw the incident on Monday. I asked her to tell the teacher what she saw. 

Today walking to school I saw a boy harassing my dependent from afar. And I was right there next to my dependent! I told the teacher and the case manager. 

I'm a parent on a mission. There's a fire lit under me. 

I stayed and volunteered at the school library. I saw the teacher at recess to see how things went. Then I went home. 

Later today I had to take .5 Xanax because I was over stimulated. It was causing me some tightness in my left breast muscle (pecs), a feeling if rush and flush. I had napped to see if it would calm down. I had been nine days since my last dosage. 

New project

I'm enjoying my research on the travels of Laura Ingalls Wilder. I'm enjoying seeing how towns changed over time. From trails to roads to highways. 

Ghost Towns

Marysville, NE (Seward County)postal and trade routes changed and settlement abandoned. Left is church and cemetery. (www.roadsidethoughts.com; www.ghosttowns.com)

Richland, KS (Wikipedia; www.kansasmemory.org) 

One more city not on the map but an honorable mention; Nicodemus, Kansas. Mrs. Wilder goes on to mention how many colored people they were seeing in Kansas. One city, that they did not pass by is Nicodemus. It is one of the longest surviving African-American originated cities in America. Currently no one lives there on a permanent basis. However, reunion festivals are held for former residents. There is a book about the city titled "Going Home to Nicodemus"

P.S.

 I google mapped Nicodemus and Beatrice Kansas. Nicodemus is Way Out of the way; too far west from the road they took. 

Mapping the travel diary by Laura Ingalls wilder

I just about finished mapping out the route the Ingalls-Wilder and Cooley family took from De Smet, South Dakota to Mansfield, Missouri. The trail they followed was so well traveled it became part of the interstate highways and state routes. Proof of that is actually shown in her reverse trip diary 40 years later in 1931. She mentions the highways used at the time. Some routes have become highways(freeways) and their numbers have changed. Route 71 is one of them. Route 59 is the old route 71 now.

You know in the beginning I tried to plot the course through Map-Quest. It kept telling me in no uncertain terms that I couldn't get there from here. That is, even though they could do it back in 1894 and again in 1931; in 2013 it was impossible. So I googled it on my iPhone. Now, I was plotted. But wait, that's not all.... I looked for other maps that had cities mentioned with the highways shown. I looked at AAA online downloadable maps with city and street markings. I looked at old maps too. No highways! No surprise there. I found maps of the four states through www.geology.com. The maps that came up were nice. Someone posted them from the site. I went to see if I could get a cleaner map... You have to PAY to even look at their maps; $20.00 for basic. The person who posted the four states unknowingly did me a favor. I printed them out and started comparing the hand drawn map to a GPS map. Lots of fun there. 

The first group of maps I printed today ended up being painted on by my dependent  and friends. Those were maps that the Ingalls Wilder museums had made. I would have to wait until after playtime with new paints and friends to print out my pages. And so here you find me describing what happened before. 

Dear nelly

Hi nelly could you do me a favor? Please go to my Sherlock,...,...,... Multi-fandom site and tell Lucy warren that my G+account was temporarily suspended. Ask her to please contact me via my gmail account. 

Please and thank you. 

Mercedes  

LHOTP

I am enjoying reading the Little House series. I'm reading Farmer Boy now. I'm at Spring Time. Right now a starved dog is protecting the family from robbers. Seems a con man came to buy a horse from the Wilder family. The con man finally paid the family the full worth of the horse and took the horse. It was too late to go to town and deposit the money. Apparently the con man has partners that come later in the night and invade the house and demand the money. 

My other favorite is THE TRAVEL DIARY of Laura Ingalls Wilder. There are three books in this one. First is 1894, second 1915, and third is 1931. I read 1915 almost 20 years ago. It was letters she wrote to Almanzo Wilder on her way to San Francisco for the world fair. Her daughter, Rose Wilder Lane, would write letters later, as well. At one point Laura fell off a trolley and badly injured. The trolley company found her culpable because she stood up.  Problem is the trolley was FULL. ALso on this trip Rose tells her Pa that her Ma is starting to get fat.

The book shows a picture of Laura in modern dress for 1931(3rd book). Books one and three are reciprocals if each other. In 1894 the Wilder's left De Smet, South Dakota for Mansfield, Missouri. In 1931 they reverse that travel. From Mansfield, Missouri to De Smet, South Dakota. What's the difference now? A LOT! Horse to motor car. Dirt road to highway. Utilities! Running water and electricity could be found at the travel lodges they stayed at. No sleeping in covered wagons for them! Both books detail the area, buildings, towns/cities, etc...  The first book 1894, showed them taking up to two months to get from A to B. every day they travelled city to city and stopped. In 1931 they took the original highway 71. Hours passed and so did MANY cities. What once took weeks and months now took hours and days. 

I want to do a comparison between the two. I've already started making notes about what to compare. I'll keep you up to date. 

Google plus account suspended

Dear google plus;

Why did you suspend my account? I use a screen name. I don't post spam, porn or hate. Wazzup? 

Way to screw me over. 

Reminder for my story

Here is an excel created reminder of the clothes my character has. It also stares from when and where she got them. For my story...  www.mycrappynovel.blogspot.com

Homeless Guy

I want to recommend a blog here. It's by a homeless man in San Diego. 

www.thehomelessguy.blogspot.com .

http://thehomelessguy.blogspot.com/?m=1

It's been a while

I know it's been a while. Summer is not the best for me. My dependent went back to school. D has new issues in this new grade. My relation and I have started  relating again! Yay! D was supposed to go with extended family one weekend. It never happened. So Relation and I never got a chance to boogie around! I was pissed! You try planning to get rid of a dry spell and have your dependent refuse to sleepover! 

I'm at the point where I take .5 Xanax once a week now. A few times I made it to 1 1/2 weeks. I've been going to group once a week. Today I took .5 Xanax. I finally had to. My body felt heavy, tight, uncomfortable. I will need to talk to my dr about this. 

I started walking at least five minutes a day. Even so I've still gained weight and feel the difference. My undergarments fits tighter. It causes me anxiety. As soon as I come home I remove all my tight clothes.  

For my bday I got long looms. Now I can knit scarves. Yay!