Dealing with anxiety today

It's not too bad. I knew today I was going to have to take Xanax again. I did. I took .5 Xanax after waking up in a panic. The symptoms were there I simply waited unto I couldn't control them any longer. I'm sitting outside with my sewing/knitting kit and my dog. My relation is in bed with an injured back. It was injured exiting the car last night at 7-11. Oh and it was "SO MUCH FUN" discovering the reefer addicts had parked next to us. NOT! Cops need to go to the parking lot again. Get the junkies out of there. Could've been arrested for DUI/DWI. 

This past week Oklahoma has had to deal with their own external anxieties. An EF-5 swooped in and devastated Shawnee,OK. A school destroyed. 51 people dead; it was later lowered to 24. Many were children. A teacher lay across 6 children to anchor them down. She saved their lives. Obviously lower grade. I was napping on the couch when the tv suddenly launched into he live broadcast. It had been going on for some time. Well, of course I woke up with some anxiety. I mitigated it by leaving the room and doing other projects. I went to the bathroom, washed my face and hands, and started knitting and sewing. I sewed a dress for a doll. Still working on that knitting project. 

Later today I focused on my next project. After I took that ,5 Xanax I gathered my crafting bag and went outside to the backyard.  There I loomed a bit. I reorganized my bags of yarns and cloth so it wouldn't be so messy. I started thinking about what I could do with the legs of the pants I cut off. I put out the question on two different social medias. I got some interesting responses. 

1. A pillow case for the chair

2. A quilt or cut into strips for a quilt 

3. A denim skirt for my relative, not relation. 

Well I started thinking about the quilt. First I sketched a design. Hen I took it to the next step by coordinating color patterns from construction paper.  "Why?", you ask? Because I've never done a quilt before. I don't have the right cloth to make a quilt. And the ones I do have I'm not cutting up yet to butcher unless I have practice or direction. 

Designs I thought about...

1. Pinwheel

2. Braid design

3. 1234,2341,3412,4123 pattern 

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