The Health

1 low energy

2 perspiration or sweat 

3 irregular bills

4 stand up and see spots 

5 breathing sometimes shallow 

Menopause? Anxiety? Medication (BP?) 

Please pray for me. 

Summer vacation

     This summer I have been taking my dependent relative to the park. We use sunblock, however, consequently we have still gotten tans. I am a FEW shades darker. 

     My new psychiatrist Dr. C. has returned me to my previous medication routine. I'm glad to have a new Dr. Dr. C. is younger, more focused, on time, etc...  Dr. F. had family issues that kept the dr out. 

My tongue

My tongue and I are doing much better now. Not so many cracked lines on it. The division in the back is closing. I continue to drink close to six cups of water a day. Today I had a cup of Gatorade as well. I'm waiting for the dark lines to go away. 

Drs visit

Two says ago the clinic called me to remind me of my appt. yesterday. Yesterday I went to the appt. the dr reviewed what I already knew from the radiologist/dr at DBC. He then proceeded to tell me that the standard procedure is to have the patient follow up with a specialist. He's referring me to a specialist at a hospital. 

My belief it'll be a biopsy. This time they can remove the whole thing. Thank you very much. 

The Medic

Today a younger than me family member continued to text me about this being my wake up call. I texted another family member asking to help calm down the first one.

My younger relation was mentioning about

•weight is a factor in cancer cells
•processed foods cause cancer
• relation had gone thru own wake up call with diabetes. Given five years if didnt change lifestyle.


Person went on and on. I tried my best not to read the texts. Eventually I deleted them without reading.

Tonight I ate a parfait from 7-11.

Let Loose the Hounds of Hell

Last night I took .5 Xanax after I got a call from the clinic. The doctor wanted me to come in earlier and talk about my mammogram results. Now the breast clinic, DBC, had already sent me a letter stating I had spots on my mammogram and they wanted to follow it up with a sonogram.

We were at odds yesterday and it carried to today. This morning while taking relative out of home we got into a verbal fight. Told me to go home walking. Guess what I did. I let out curses and was planning to walk to local diner to get away from fight. After dropping relative off relation got in car and caught up to me. Angrily signaling to get in the car. I was pissed. I didn't want to.

We drove arguing for a while. Upon reaching the house we sat in the car and continued to Argue. We each shouted ou our points at each other.

We finally got to the doctor. The gremlins were playing with my records. First they couldn't find my file. Then, when they found it, they couldn't find the results from DBC. I called DBC and left a message for them to call the clinic and re-fax my results.

Finally 30 minutes later I'm finally Seen by the doctor. My case manager and my relation join me in the patient room. The nurse practitioner tells me there us a 1.0 cm dense area in my left outer upper quadrant. They will follow up with a sonogram. I got that letter about the sonogram appt. already.

After the session relation picks up our relative while I have a therapy walk with my case manager. Talking with the case manager helps me to relieve stress. St two I called my relation to pick me up. Both come and get me. We eat lunch at Subway. I had comfort food. Soup, salad and a drink. Meatball sandwich, vegetable beef soup, and lemonade.

My therapist saw me before my appt. and told me expect a call this evening to follow up. My therapist was fully booked. I was reminded, this evening during the phone call, that the staff was there for me.

4.22.13

Well I found out ASIT has a knitting class today. I missed the 1/3 last week. Today is 2/3 and next week is 3/3 class. Did not go since hubby had tension headache.

Hubby has had a tension headache since last night. He's rested most of the day. This affected me after 3pm. I had to tutor a child with homework. This child didn't want to do it. Child asked for a third slice of cheese... No more cheese, focus. Gogurt is available. Too much cheese causes constipation. Child started writing silly sentences in spelling. Spelling words this week are homonyms. Here are two dilly sentences written...

1. I sighed at my side juice.
2. I poured him a poor juice.

I tried to get the child to rearrange the sentences, explaining why they were inappropriate or wrongly stated. Child did not want to fix the sentences. Child did not want to do math either. Apparently it was a bad day all around.

Right now, 7:30pm, I took my pm rx cholesterol and Lexapro. I had to take it early. I realized I was causing myself to hyperventilate. I'm starting over again.

Symptoms I'm suffering:
1. hyperventilation because I'm holding my breath
2. Out of body feeling.., I hate that! All my old symptoms are coming back.
3. FEAR about the spots in my mammogram.

Last night I couldn't help but think about my follow up mammogram. I have fibroids in BOTH breasts. When they first popped up they HURT!!! At the end of last year, when I had my panic/anxiety attacks my breasts once again started hurting when I had a bad panic attack. Freaky.

Oh, the photo here is of my neighbor. I went to take my dog for a walk. I had to real him back to avoid the neighbors unleashed dog. They ALWAYS have their dogs off-leash. The other day they jumped the fence and attacked two girls walking down the street. The girls hid on our driveway behind the car. One girl actually was bitten by a dog. She screamed she was going to kick the dog in the head. This was at the end of March, before the tonsillectomy.

Shy should I have to alter my plans because they like to have their dogs leash less. There is a law! Their dogs chased after me seven years ago when I was getting out of the car. They had done it repeatedly that week. Shite!!