What a day!

Thursday and Friday were emotional days for me. Got into a fight with my relation. I wrote sinvergüenza cabrón and R. wrote bitch. There was a verbal fight before the written fight. I wrote in my journal in pencil. R. came up to me outside and asked me what I wrote. I said,"sinvergüenza cabrón" "what does it say?" I repeated my statement. Finally R. demanded to know the translation. I told R. IlIt means "shameless goat". That's when R wrote bitch in my journal in pen. I told R I had written in pencil! R didn't care and continues to write in pen. A PERMANENT mark. Bastard! 

It left a negative impression on me entering therapy. I was not happy at all. Tears came down my face. I eventually was able to have a one on one with my therapist. 

I decided to remove the page in front of my relation instead of with my therapist. That way R could see I was over the situation. When I did do this R said I shouldn't take out the page. I still needed the other dates in the page. Also that I should remember my errors. That pissed me off. R usually says something like that being serious and playful at the same time. R said I need to be nicer. R needs to be nicer too. Words are too sharp.