I had a scary night last night. I woke up to a very fast heart rate. It scared the shit out if me. I haven't had that in a long while! As I walked to the kitchen to get my med I was still breathing normally but my heart started pounding harder and faster. My hands started trembling. At one point I could hear my heart valves open close open close open close in my ear drums! I took .5 Xanax but it didn't have an immediate effect. I then took another .5 Xanax; 1.0 Xanax total. I woke up my relation and requested help. R got up grumpily and met me in the bathroom. By then I had removed my top and placed a wet towel on my chest. R rubbed my back while we held hands. R went in to tell me there was nothing wrong with me. That R has been off the Rx for weeks now with no ill effects. GOODY FOR R! I didn't want to argue. I just wanted to get better. This all happened at 1:00 AM!
As I left the bathroom I texted my cousins
"g'nite" to see who was up. They both wished me good night. My older one I talked to the longest. The younger one said was lonely and missed us. I feel ya cuz. Not easy taking care of a disabled parent when you're an only child.
My older cousin and I played three games on tango then I said good night and went to bed. Good cousin. C followed up to see how I was doing. "Better" I said. "Good" C said.
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